Category Archives: Spirituality

Mountain of fears

Hello lovely readers and fellow human beings! How’s your day going so far?

I was just flipping through an old notebook and found the following poem. I don’t often (if ever) write poetry, but in the last few years I have found myself spontaneously putting pen to paper in an attempt to express something about myself or the emotions I’m feeling at the time. As far as this poem goes, I’m still stood on the mountain of fear, but I have taken my first brave few steps towards the valley below.

Mountain of fear

I’m stood on a mountain

All on my own

I’m scared of my shadow

I’m scared I might fall

Who will be there, to catch me when I stumble?

And yet the view is magnificent from up here

I see new places for me to explore

I see sunshine and happiness and love

I see beautiful rich colours

If the mountain is my fears, the valley below is my dreams

Step by step I will descend into joy

Not prize-winning by any means! But still, I quite like it. I remember not really being in control of the words that came out. They just sort of poured out of their own accord. I like this, because it reminds me that there is such a thing as a subconscious mind to be listened to and respected. Our subconscious can teach us a lot about who we are and what we want for ourselves. If we don’t take the time to listen, we might find ourselves feeling very lost indeed. So give it a go. Just take a blank piece of paper and a pen and see what appears on the page. Don’t be afraid of what you might write, and don’t judge yourself for it. It is what it is, and you are who you are. And there ain’t nothing wrong with that!

Peace out! x

A definition of spirituality, and how you might be more spiritual than you realise…

Spirituality is a word that I have always found a little uncomfortable. I do not come from a religious family, and whilst I respect all religions and try not to judge others for having a different belief system to me, I have always associated being spiritual with being religious, and that, I find, just isn’t quite the right for for me.

There’s also the whole ridicule thing. People who live a hippy-ish sort of existence and believe in crystal healing and the power of love to heal all wounds, tend to be seen as being a bit wacky and ‘out there’. You know what I mean? We’ve all heard jokes poked at people who talk about releasing their inner child and going on a journey of self-discovery.

So what is spirituality? I’m someone who has seen and experienced a few things which just can’t be explained through science. I have seen and heard ghosts, I’ve had random moments of complete intuition – like a sixth sense. My sister and I once played a game when we were teenagers. We were especially close at the time, and so had a strong bond. She would look at a playing card and I would tell her what number she was looking at. I once got about 10 correct in a row, and we got so freaked out we stopped playing! I’ve had clear signs from the Universe (or God, or whatever you wish to call that feeling that there is something bigger than us, surrounding us at all times and helping us along the way) as to what steps I should take next in my life. I’ve had strange things happen that others have called coincidence, but which I know is something else. My mum always used to say to me growing up that things have a funny sort of way of sorting themselves out, and I have certainly had moments in my life where exactly the right person, job or situation has come along exactly when I needed it.

We all have, at different times, a sense that there is something more to this life. Some of us believe in fate, or that ‘if it’s meant to be, it will be’. We have all (I hope!) experienced love, which is that most magical thing we can’t measure or test with scientific instruments, but which we nonetheless know exists.

So I think, in our own ways, we are all a bit spiritual. This doesn’t mean that we can’t then believe in science, or that just because you believe in ghosts you also have to believe in crystal healing etc. There is no fixed definition. We are our own definitions of spirituality, each and every one of us. So the next time you hear a beautiful piece of music and you are transported to another place, you can think ‘ah hah, I think I just had a spiritual moment!’

I hope this post chimes with some of you. It’s something that has been playing around in my mind for a while. I’m determined not to be embarrassed or feel I need to make excuses for any aspects of myself, including my spiritual beliefs. I want to be able to own every aspect of myself, and show myself the same respect I try to show others.

Bye for now x